I saw Eclipse last night. It's now my favorite of the 3 movies out. This movie and these books make me nostalgic for my TYA summers and living back at the 501. Being on my own and independent...which is hard to feel even though I am 23 years old, but still living at home.
I struggled a lot this year, especially through the winter to just be OK with where I'm at. still not there yet... I had a lot of things to take care of this past year I think before I could even think about picking up and moving somewhere... but now it's all I ever think of when I wake up in the morning or go to sleep at night.
This morning I had a song from the now Broadway show Next to Normal stuck in my head. It pretty much sums up where I'm at right now. It's called "I miss the Mountains"
There was a time when I flew higher,
Was a time the wild girl running free would be me
Now I see her, feel the fire
Now I know she needs me there to share
I'm nowhere
All these blank and tranquil years
Seems they've dried up all my tears
And while she runs free and fast
Seems my wild days are past
But I miss the mountains
I miss the dizzy heights
All the manic magic days
And the dark depressing nights
I miss the mountains
I miss the highs and lows
All the climbing, all the falling
All the while the wild wind blows
Stinging you with snow
And soaking you with rain
I miss the mountains
I miss the pain
Mountains make you crazy
Here it's safe and sound
My mind is somewhere hazy
My feet are on the ground
Everything is balanced here
And on an even keel
Everything is perfect
Nothing's real
Nothing's real
And I miss the mountains
I miss lowly climb
Wandering through the wilderness
And spending all my time
Where the air is clear and cuts you like a knife
I miss the mountains
I, I miss the mountains
I miss my life
I miss my life
Of course this is sung by a lost mother who can't seem to let go of her dead son, but I think I can relate very well to the lyrics besides that context.
I miss the mountains. Fresh air, wild dreams and taking chances not knowing the outcomes... I miss my life.
